AllMyAffairs.com anticipation

AllMyAffairs.com looks like it will launch on schedule.  That means the middle to end of October.  It has evolved from a sober social network into a place to share your gratitude towards a recovery organization that has helped you.  (a non-anonymous organization).  It will also be a place to help out that organization financially through your everyday shopping.  As it has evolved, it has become more about giving and less about me.  That's a good thing.  I'm very excited for the launch.

As excited as I am, it is difficult to stay in the moment and say, "Whatever happens, happens."  I constantly think back on the past.  How did it get here?  What if I hadn't accepted investor money and just done something else?  Would I be better off?

And I think about the future.  What if a million people use it?  What myriad of problems and attention is that going to bring?  And what if no one ever uses it?  Months and many dollars wasted.  What am I going to do then?  Am I going to go practice law? (It's funny how with everything else I've admitted about myself, I have trouble admitting I'm a lawyer.)

And I notice:
I'm too negative.
I'm too fearful.
I see things only in black and white.
I'm a lawyer.

Well, I guess all those things can be quelled with practice. 

It's funny - I have never before said, "I'm excited."  It's too risky.  It exposes me to too much possibility for hurt.  But I said it, "I'm excited."  And I am.  Come what may.

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[Nicky]

Hi,

My name is Nick and I have started a recovery website called ODAT Online. The address is http://www.odatonline.com.

I feel like your blog would be a valuable resource for other people in recovery at my recovery blog list. Please take a moment and sign up if you would like to take part @ http://www.odatonline.com/bloglist

Also I've designed a cool sobriety time counter that you can add to your blog here: http://www.odatonline.com/sobriety-counter

I like what you've done with drupal. My site uses drupal as well but I'm just getting used to it. Anyway, email me back if you have any feedback on my site.

Thanks,

Nick